Tuesday, December 7, 2010
Being as it has been about a week since my last post, I suppose I better bust out some sort of an update for you all.
My hubby has been gone the last four days, helping to train some new workers in another town. So, I have been playing the role of single mommy. Oh man, am I tired! I love my little boys to pieces, but really... the word "calm" means nothing to them. We need a back yard... a HUGE back yard.
Needless to say, I haven't got much of anything done. Even the house work is falling behind (though I did pull out the oven and wash behind it. Note to self: do that chore a tad bit more often.) Even as I type this right now, my oldest is spinning the chair I am sitting in and repeating "mommy, go byebye?" over and over. I can't wait for Daddy to come home.
I chanced a look at my first draft the other day. Scrolled through it and read random parts. Can I be honest? I am as scared as heck to dive in to this next phase. I think I am gladly letting the excuses keep me away from it... In my head, I love the story. But I am so freaked that when I actually read what I wrote, it will be horrible and only deserve the daunting, huge "delete" button.
I feel at a loss. Since I have never gotten to this point in my life, I don't fully know where to go from here. Is there a right way? Am I editing it to be better... or worse? Do you have any idea how tempting it is to tuck it away into some hidden file and deny that it ever existed?
But I can't do that. I love Prison Nation. I really do.
Hopefully my next update will be an actual update.
Time to chase the boys around, again.